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23rd September 2011

Photo reblogged from Impressioniste with 68 notes

impressioniste: signcherie: Do people say that Karl and Anders were in love? For me, the attraction of that pairing is the tragedy of the almost-love, could-have-been-but-never-really-was dynamic. ———- I’m reblogging because it’s totally a bullshit excuse to pull an excerpt from my self-indulgent fic to use as a response: We had a kinship, a friendship… which eventually became intimate. We were ‘lovers’, but that word calls to itself ideas that were perhaps more than what we were. We cared for each other. We had sex. But it wasn’t the same thing as being in love. Love is a luxury that one cannot afford while living in the Circle. It was torture enough having the Rite of Tranquility held over our own heads as an ultimatum. If they were to hold that over someone or something we loved… It was just too dangerous to fall in love. So, we had what we had. It was convenient. It was hopeful. It was an escape. It was one tiny pleasure in a world of hopelessness and pain. It made us feel human, for just a little while. It didn’t keep me from bedding who or whatever I could every time I ran away from the circle, but each time I was caught and returned, I returned to Karl, too. I never asked him if he had anyone else, just as he never asked it of me. That tiny bit of freedom to choose who we gave ourselves to was something neither of us would ever infringe upon. Hawke asked me once if I had been in love with Karl. I responded honestly and told him, ‘No.’ I don’t regret what we had, but I do wonder what might have been had we been allowed to act like normal people instead of dehumanized prisoners. What Hawke and I have… I wish Karl could have had that with someone. Beautiful stuff. And so could be canon…sigh

impressioniste:

signcherie:

Do people say that Karl and Anders were in love? For me, the attraction of that pairing is the tragedy of the almost-love, could-have-been-but-never-really-was dynamic.

———-

I’m reblogging because it’s totally a bullshit excuse to pull an excerpt from my self-indulgent fic to use as a response:

We had a kinship, a friendship… which eventually became intimate. We were ‘lovers’, but that word calls to itself ideas that were perhaps more than what we were. We cared for each other. We had sex. But it wasn’t the same thing as being in love. Love is a luxury that one cannot afford while living in the Circle. It was torture enough having the Rite of Tranquility held over our own heads as an ultimatum. If they were to hold that over someone or something we loved… It was just too dangerous to fall in love. So, we had what we had.

It was convenient. It was hopeful. It was an escape. It was one tiny pleasure in a world of hopelessness and pain. It made us feel human, for just a little while. It didn’t keep me from bedding who or whatever I could every time I ran away from the circle, but each time I was caught and returned, I returned to Karl, too. I never asked him if he had anyone else, just as he never asked it of me. That tiny bit of freedom to choose who we gave ourselves to was something neither of us would ever infringe upon.

Hawke asked me once if I had been in love with Karl. I responded honestly and told him, ‘No.’ I don’t regret what we had, but I do wonder what might have been had we been allowed to act like normal people instead of dehumanized prisoners. What Hawke and I have… I wish Karl could have had that with someone.

Beautiful stuff. And so could be canon…sigh

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Source: dragonageconfessions

  1. dizzysteinway reblogged this from spicyshimmy
  2. geewhathappensnext reblogged this from hamburgerjack and added:
    I think it could have been love if they’d been freer. As far as we know, Karl was never outside the tower system for...
  3. hamburgerjack reblogged this from heckyesgaming and added:
    BECAUSE HE COULD LOVE HAWKE. The way he wanted and deserved. He could never have anything close like that with Karl, but...
  4. brelaina reblogged this from lolbatty and added:
    I have two words. Plot, and hole. In my head canon there was definitely something between Anders and Karl at an...
  5. carrotcakebandit reblogged this from lolbatty and added:
    I thought Karl had a cool beard . _ .
  6. rainbowdogma reblogged this from lolbatty and added:
    I could’ve sworn one of my Anders play-throughs had a dialogue in which he stated he and Karl had been in a relationship...
  7. lolbatty reblogged this from spicyshimmy and added:
    I’ve always sort of thought that maybe he was in love with him.. in the sort of way that any young person might love...
  8. heckyesgaming reblogged this from dragonageconfessions
  9. fullelvencastiel reblogged this from spicyshimmy and added:
    Um, if you romance Anders as a man, he’ll pretty much tell you how Karl was his first. A friend pointed it out to me on...
  10. thewaroffivequeens reblogged this from spicyshimmy and added:
    Yeah, I always took first to mean first person who came close to touching his heart, the first person he had genuine...
  11. signcherie reblogged this from spicyshimmy and added:
    I love discussion of Karl/Anders and seeing what other people think, because I have a fic in mind for these two that I...
  12. spicyshimmy reblogged this from signcherie and added:
    ahhh karl things, i can’t not talk about karl things. especially when people are saying such good stuff about karl...
  13. fafferton reblogged this from signcherie and added:
    My personal feeling is that Karl was probably the first person Anders had strong feelings for, but not really love. I...
  14. elluvias reblogged this from elenilote and added:
    Yup. Don’t get me wrong, I love Karl to death (in the whole brief two minute time period we see him). I always thought...
  15. annavainen reblogged this from elenilote and added:
    I always saw their relationship as a “good friends with benefits” type of arrangement. Come to think of it, that’s how I...
  16. surelyforthvakarian reblogged this from dragonageconfessions and added:
    This. I sort of view Karl as someone that represents one of the less obvious reasons why the Circle was so terrible. He...